89/3 How Important Is It, Anyway?
Today I stayed very focused on my priorities-my two main priorities being my sobriety and my abstinence. I truly believe that if I put both my sobriety and my abstinence first in my life, everything else will fall into place. But I also believe strongly that anything I put before my sobriety I will lose, because that has been my experience with relapse. So for these past 89 days I have been putting my sobriety first, and everything else in my life is coming second.
Yesterday, although I did not blog about it, I was kind of consumed by negative feelings until I made the decision to focus on gratitude. I've heard many times, and it's definitely true, that gratitude is an action word. Once I made the decision to have an "Attitude of Gratitude" my day really changed for the better. Today I'm also able to take a step back and say, "How important is it, anyway". When I think about how I want my life to look, the things I value- how important are these little setbacks-these uncomfortable feelings? I can usually answer that they are hardly important when looking at the big picture. And, although I have no idea what God has in store for me in the future, I think it's more important than whether or not I'm being accepted by one or two other women who, like me, are experiencing the pains of growing up.