Today I have 8 days of abstinence. This is the most time I've ever had. I think this, combined with my 94 days of sobriety is making me a little more emotional than usual. Yesterday I was supposed to take a chip at a meeting I go to, and I was too scared to get up in front of the room. I think I had a panic attack or something. Well, I sneaked out before they called my name but some people actually followed me. I feel pretty humiliated and I don't know how I'm going to go back to that meeting.