Day 73...A Change In Perspective
I feel significantly better. Went to an amazing meeting and feel very grateful to be sober. I have a world of oppurtunities ahead of me, and I look forward to what tomorrow will bring.
Today was, for the most part, kind of a down day. And I've been having really great days as the result of working a really good program and forcing myself to do a lot of things I haven't wanted to do that I've been assured would have positive results (and they have)...It felt weird to have a bad day as the result of choosing to sit in my crap rather than take action because I haven't chosen inaction in a really long time. Whenever I've felt terrible these past 73 days, it's usually been a direct result of someone saying or doing something directly to me that I've internalized in a negative way-it has not been the result of me not doing enough for my recovery, so I actually haven't felt terrible for that long or very often this time around.
I guess this is a learning experience. Tomorrow I will just do my best to do everything I can for my recovery, because I am beginning to see that without my recovery I don't have very much.