Short and Sweet
Hey y'all...it's been a while, so long in fact that spilling my worries on the world wide web feels awkward. Where to begin, where to begin?
I had an ultrasound this morning to find out more about my GI problem. Since the medication I was did not prove effective, now my GI doctor thinks this could be a gall bladder problem in addition to gastroparesis. A side note on the meds: it catalyzed anxiety that I would hardly imagine, it also made me super jittery. So, the past few blog-less weeks have been pretty painful...last night, for example, I came home from a great ballet class to double over in pain. Hopefully this latest test will provide us with some answers.
On the good side: I'm seeing a new therapist. I was quite hesitant at first, but I really like her. I immediately got the impression that she's smart and I'll be comfortable talking with her. We're discussing guilt and anxiety and eating disorders; I've put these pieces together time and time again to explain where I find myself now, but my first therapist never gave me the time of day. She never treated these issues as if they are related. While the idea of therapy always strikes me as necessary but inherently awkward it does feels good to be strategizing about how to handle this beast.
Sorry this post was short, I'm starting to feel nauseous. I'm actually hungry right now; imagine that: an anorexic who wants nothing more than to eat a normal meal.
I'll be better about posting again...it feels so good to blog:)